im gnna eat a sandwich and watch cougar town to fill the void that finishing all seasons of friends have left me with.
im happy these days
life is turning okay
all is good when we are good
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just had amazing sex-as always- in my new bed, watched game of thrones and chilled with u <3
you are gonna regret doing this
Im afraid
open your eyes people
this world is a horrible horrible place
not the actual earth, but the world we call home. the world we created, where we live in, these societies.
i look at the sky many times and just take it in, i see how big it is and imagine it all on scales and how tiny i am in here. i imagine going further and imagining the universe and where exactly do we hang in there…
i just try to picture it all from another perspective but still mine… from earth.
im scared of this world, i really dont like it… im scared of many things that surprisingly exist.
we need to be realistic, open your eyes.
life is not about tumblr, the internet, the material objects like iphones and televisions and cars and clothes… money…
im not even really trying to focus on those things only its really about everything. What we think life is about…
and this wont stop… we are in too deep. There’s so much we are ignorant about
what are we doing?
what are we getting out of life?
is this even life we live?
we are taught we need to work to earn money to be able to live in this world
we are paying a price to live “free” in this world we were born in
and so we spent our lives working to earn money because that is what all is about
i dont want this anymore and i cant do anything because im just a little spect in this huge huge universe.
and im forced to live like this.
my “life” is controlled by something i dont even know. there are people, that play a big role in this world. and its not even about presidents…
i am afraid. to live
because i have no motivation to do so… i dont have a motivation to wake up in the morning and act like everyone does. to live like everyone does.
i am not as deep in and hooked to this system like other people are.
its is soul wracking for me…
im afraid of not having a choice.
i was brought to life. and i have no other choice but to live it
because i dont even know what happens after death.
it might not end there
we are made of energy and energy doesnt die, but transforms…
im just afraid. down to the food they sell you at the supermarket and they said its what we know as food.
but it all has changed
and we are fools not to see anything at all
i dont know anymore how to do this
i really feel like i have no choice but live in this world like everyone does
but it makes me so sad
why
he doesnt take it well when you dont know what to say
and even when he is there he is always somewhere else
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thatwasnt a promo post AT ALL by the way
my intentions are pretty obvious
ijust wanted to state what a nice beautiful person this girl is
those photos are from like november i think Mr Wilson finally decided to send some of them <3
you can still see my chickenpox scars
HOW CAN YOU BE LIKE THIS?
SERIOUSLY
IM TRYING REALLY HARD NOT TO SWEAR AT YOU EVERY ADJECTIVE THAT CAN DESCRIBE SOMEONE THAT IS NOT REALLY INTELLIGENT AT ALL…
HOW CAN YOU DO THIS
EVVVVVERY TIME?
HOW CAN YOU BE SO CARELESS
SERIOUSLY
GET YOUR FUCKING SHIT TOGETHER FOR ONCE
you and your stupid pockets and your not being organized and being clumsy and careless and dumb
stop losing shit
thats all you do
lose shit
you LOSE YOUR SHIT
you LOSE SHIT
im beyond angry at this very moment
so angry i want to cry
im cho chleepy im gunna chake a nap
so
yesterday i had a long ass exhausting day of shooting for a music video thats gonna come out mids of may
im only gonna say is a sickkkkkkkkkk video
me and my bf are on it :P
even after i was done with all the scenes i was meant to be in, i was so happy to change back into my comfy clothes and shoes
only to be called minutes after again to be on other scenes
it wassssss a cool day
once more, homeless
